SAN FRANCISCO, December 24, (THEWILL) – Hollywood actress, Taraji P Henson has opened up about one of her darkest moments which occurred during the COVID-19 lockdown.
Speaking via her Facebook Watch series, ‘Peace of Mind with Taraji,’ the actress said she contemplated suicide while discussing mental breakdown with co-host Tracie Jade and licensed psychologist, Dr LaShonda Green.
She detailed the dark moment she faced after the coronavirus pandemic left her feeling withdrawn and isolated.
“During this pandemic, it’s been hard on all of us, and I had a moment. I had a dark moment. I was in a dark place. For a couple of days, I couldn’t get out of the bed, I didn’t care. That’s not me. Then, I started having thoughts about ending it. It happened two nights in a row,” she recalled.
Before this, Taraji said she had purchased a gun. The actress remembered thinking to herself, “I could go in there right now and just end it all, ’cause I want it to be over.”
When the possible effect of the attempted suicide on her 26-year-old son, Marcell Johnson, crossed her mind, Taraji told herself he’d get over it because he’s an adult. After Taraji said she began withdrawing and stopped responding to concern loved ones who had reached out, she realized she needed to speak up about her feelings.
“Finally, I’m talking to one of my girlfriends and I knew, I was smart enough to say, ‘I have to say it.’ Because a part of me was ashamed. I was like, ‘I don’t want them to think I’m crazy. I don’t want them to obsess over me or think they gotta come and sit on me.’”
“So one day I just blurted it out to my girlfriend. She called me in the morning and I was like, ‘You know I thought about killing myself last night. Oh my god, I feel so much better. I’m not gonna do it now,” the 50-year-old Oscar nominee said.
This revelation comes a month after she opened up about the end of her engagement to former NFL star, Kelvin Hayden.
