March 27, (THEWILL) – Nigerian-American artiste, Jane Chika Oranika, popularly known as Chika, has left fans worried over a post on her social media.
In a lengthy post on Instagram, the Grammy nominated artiste detailed her career and life struggles, while saying “I am tired of myself.”
She narrated how she had been held back by challenges on several occasions while pursuing her dreams.
She added that she hope to get her “freedom somehow today.”
“l went on top of Intercontinental, but could not jump. Not because I don’t want to, but because the metal stairs were scary.
“It looks like crying wolf, but it’s not. It’s just difficult to find the right way. The quickest way, the painless way, I am tired of myself too.
She added that her experience in life has shown that “I was never meant to win”, even though she “inspired many people to achieve greatness.
“I will find that freedom somehow today. I am not sorry to let people down. I refuse to die carrying the burden of people who could not share my own.
“I refuse to take this pressure to the grave, I refuse to continue to deceive myself into believing things are meant to get better. I knew everything in my life before it happened.
“Ask my mom and dad, they heard me predict my life. I was not wrong and I am still not wrong, I am not speaking things into existence, I am speaking of what already exist. The story. The narrative. The ebbs and flows. The saga.
“I was never meant to win. I was meant to show someone else they can. I do not forgive anyone and I do not want anyone to forgive me, except my best friend Cole and my immediate family, mom, dad, sister’s that’s all.
“They shouldn’t have to hurt when remembering me. That really fu**king suck and I’m piece of sh*t for that. I know it, but my hurting matters too, even if only to me. Thank you to the nice lady in MN, who gave me a hug.
“That kindness and selflessness is needed in the world. You’re someone’s angel, you’re going to save someone’s life just not mine. No more typing, I’m going to finish my drink and find a way that works. Thanks for the ride, I hated it.”
Chika was signed into Warner record in 2019, a year later, she was included in XXL’s 2020 Freshman Class. Last year, she was nominated for Best New Artiste category of the Grammy awards.
